MP #3 – Positive Mental Alchemy

Alchemy (n.) 1. the medieval forerunner of chemistry, esp. seeking to turn base metals into gold or silver. The art of transmuting metals.; 2. a miraculous transformation or the means of achieving this.

Waking up can be a struggle. I found myself at the bottom of the barrel,
without knowing what put me there.
I wouldn’t speak to people. Not because I was afraid,
but because I didn’t know what to say.
I didn’t know what was wrong, so what would I even talk about?
I ultimately decided against medication and counselling,
and opted to look internally instead.

I cut out things that frustrated me – social network timelines and statuses,
and started to read more. I went through a few books on the Laws of the Universe,
Meditation and Yoga, Self-Help and Positivity.
Beginning to feel self-righteous and worldly, I wanted to know more.
Particularly, how everything is connected with everything else.

Though there are many Laws of the Universe, I focused on
The Law of Attraction: “this demonstrates how we create things,
events and people that come into our lives. Our thoughts,
feelings, words and actions produce energy, which, in turn, attracts like energies.”

Your world is shaped by the energy you give out.
You can achieve anything you desire, provided you’ve the right focus.
Being pinned down with negative feelings attracts negative energy.
Have you noticed when something goes wrong, everything else seems to go wrong too?
I very much appreciated that, so I began to shift my energy by:

  • Continuing to read
  • Speaking to others more – and most importantly – listening
  • Trying to make people happy, even when I wasn’t
  • Ensuring I was cutting out things that would frustrate me
  • Writing: I focused properly, and started creating a book
  • Surrounding myself with talented, like-minded musicians and friends
  • Calming the ‘noise’ in my mind enough to meditate (let’s say there’s still some work to be done here…!)

I’m still very much a novice at shifting energy, and thinking positively.
But one thing I noticed a lot of people do, was get frustrated when they had dips.
No one expects you to stay happy 24/7, 365. You’ll drive yourself crazy.
The problem lies when we hold on to those negative thoughts.
Let them ride out, and then get back to your positive outlook.
Learn from mistakes, and allow yourself to make them.

Replace your negative thoughts, with positive ones.

Positive Mental Alchemy, art by S Sid Ahmed

Positive Mental Alchemy, art by S Sid Ahmed

Something to Watch:

“The Modern Samaritan”, a great example of kindness and positive energy.
“Free Hugs with CALM”
, a hug is such a small thing that can change someone’s day for the better.

Something to Read:

“It’s Not How Good You Are, But How Good You Want To Be” by Paul Arden
“The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho
“The Power of Now” by Eckhart Tolle
“The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne
“The Master Key System” by Charles F. Haanel
“Chicken Soup for the Soul” by Jack Canfield
“All That Men Know About Women” by Dr. Alan Francis

For more art by S Sid Ahmed.

MP #2 – A Little Self-Maintenance.

We have an idea; we believe in it once others do.
We proceed, once we’ve had approval.
We execute, then wait on critique.
It gets judged, and you wished you never had the idea to begin with.

I hate relying on others to justify my work but a part of me, needs acceptance.
I need to write something and know others agree with me.
Others relate to me. That others understand me.
Because it’s so nice to know that someone else can understand my head,
better than I can.

My art relies on ego. My ego allows risk.
My cockiness allows me to appreciate and respect myself enough,
to be devoid of external opinions.
Then, I release something and hope I get really, really good.. external.. opinions.
Who said hypocrite? I resent that!

“At 20, we worry about what others think of us; at 40, we don’t care what they think of us; at 60, we discover they haven’t been thinking of us at all.” – Bob Hope.

Well, I’ll be damned. My Gemini Mind’s auto response to this came two-fold (of course):
thinking I was awesome enough not to care;
and that I’ve just saved 40 years of my life worrying needlessly;
countered by realising my career really depends on people paying attention to what I do.
So… this is great. I’m stuck in between my two conflicting sides,
and I’ve pretty much gone through my entire life, confused as hell.

And this is without external opinions.

Someone will always find fault in what you do.
But, the only way it can affect your actions is when you give it the energy to.
Attention is the biggest catalyst you could give negativity.
So don’t.

Positively start by repairing yourself.

We spend so much time trying to fix everything around us.
If we spent half that time on self-maintenance,
we’d notice that the universe will shape around our positive energy.
Sometimes things are hard, and impossible to conquer.
But going into war, you’d strengthen your armour first, right?
Self-love is not narcissistic. It’s good for you.
Especially when you have no idea how incredible you already are,

as you.

Echoing.

Echoes of voices, shadow troubled minds.
Minds inside voices trapped in echoes of caged cells.
Slammed shut, and never opening.
Not for a glimmer of light breaking from a cracked edge.
A fuelled rush from needle tips to make things a little less.

Scary.

Breathe. Through masked oxygen, and let it destroy you.
It’s like, drowning – whilst watching everyone continue.
It’s like drowning – but they can’t see that you are.
We dream of hopeful dreams, and inspired mornings,
we’re confronted with tormenters that lay over us.
Watching our eyes drift.
But how can they really drift.
When all they see, is a reflection.

Fashioned moments, fake smiles,
smoke screens and daydreams.
This, is not what I want.
This is not what I deserve.
This is not what I set out to do.
But I’m here.
Looking at me, look at you.

Listen to the dramatic reading of Echoing by S Sid Ahmed, here: http://soundcloud.com/stareintothesun/echoing

MP #1 – Quit Beating Yourself Up.

You don’t know the answer to every question.
You don’t know when your next interview will be,
or when the next opportunity will come.
Instead of giving it a time cap; give it a chance.
Allow yourself to accept opportunities that may present themselves.
How? Easy. Stop thinking that they’ll never happen.

It’s hard to stop letting your life revolve around income,
because without income you have no life, right?
There are restrictions, and there are limitations.
The dimly-lit-table-for-two becomes a processed-meal-for-one.
Why not live in abundance?
Be happy with your surroundings, and keep the glass half-full.

Note:
it’s not an illusion, the glass is only ever half FULL*

Be free – and don’t take life too seriously.
Enjoy yourself – just don’t be stupid.

Recommended Attitude: Sensibly Reckless.

Life is never smooth, easy, or clear.
Actions are never well-decided before retrospection.
But that is everything that makes life incredible.
I made wrong decisions, which allowed me to get to the right ones.
The longer journey meant for greater reflection, and appreciation.

If things are going badly, let them go badly.
Trying to force change fuels frustration,
which is a breeding ground for negativity.
Accept your problems, and look for silver linings.

“Problems cannot be solved at the same level of awareness that created them.” – Einstein.

Quit beating yourself up, and try doing some of these instead:

  • Smile to yourself.
  • Smile at others.
  • Help someone with directions.
  • Message old friends on Facebook.
  • Sing more.
  • Have a YOU day.
  • Start a conversation with someone on the tube.
  • Break that depressingly grey silence.
  • Give your seat to someone that is elderly, pregnant or disabled.
  • Give your seat to someone who isn’t.
  • Show gratitude for being alive, right this second.
  • Give more hugs. Hugs are fun.

* – if you’re questioning it, this mentality that is doing so, is exactly what you need to free yourself from.